Ben had the day off of work today so we took the kids on an outing to celebrate. It was the first time in a long time that I can remember spending so much time really just enjoying the kids… my mom spent a lot of time watching and entertaining the baby while we were out and it was nice to just be able to focus my energy on spending time with Ben, Paul and Amelia. I know that someday it won’t be this way but a lot of days I feel like the baby gets an unfair percentage of my attention. There’s never enough time or enough of me to go around and since everyone else is more understanding and less helpless she always seems to get what she needs first. I’m trying to walk a line of treasuring these moments with her as a baby while still giving the kids the attention they need…. and looking forward to the future when we can ALL play together, but still making sure that I’m not inadvertently wishing away my baby’s whole first year. It’s a balancing act that I’m definitely still adjusting to and I know I’m not doing it perfectly, but I’m doing the best I can. While we were out the kids got to play with legos. Real, actual legos. They’ve only ever played with duplos. And they got them, they knew how to use them and they were good at it. It was a weird wake up call about how old they are getting.