days 64-74 {playing catch-up}

Eek! I am sorry to leave my poor project 365 hanging with no posts for so long! In case you hadn’t figured it out already (but come on, it’s pretty obvious) I am a photographer. I am also a very last-minute decision maker and so at the last minute last week I decided that I wanted to head to Las Vegas for a photography conference. I haven’t actually been to this particular conference since before I had kids (I know, like 100 million years ago!) but it’s been a long time since I did anything really just to focus on myself and my business… so I went! And being in frantic trip-preparation mode and then actually being *on* the trip meant that I didn’t get around to posting my daily photos. I also didn’t take a single photo with my actual camera the entire time that I was in Las Vegas (can you believe it?!) so there are a few iphone shots thrown in as well.

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And now back to your regularly scheduled programming…

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days 64-74 {playing catch-up}

On love, hate and TED talks.

Did you watch Amanda Palmer’s TED talk yet? It’s all over the internet – people loving it and saying that she “won TED” (since when is TED something to be won?) and other people griping about her and her eyebrows (really, you have time to complain about someone else’s eyebrows on the internet?)

I watched it a few days ago and I can’t stop thinking about it – and it’s funny. When I watched it for the first time it was from clicking on a link in another blog and I had no idea who this lady was (so sue me, I don’t exactly have my finger on the pulse of popular culture). I thought she seemed a little nervous at first, I thought her intro reminded me of the movie “The Giant Mechanical Man” – I thought a lot of things. But she built up steam as she was going along and I was really, really with her by the time she got to the end of her message. I wanted to know more, I wanted to see who this person really was. So I googled her and found her blog.

She’s clearly got a big personality, and one that other people love or hate, there don’t seem to be a lot of in betweens. And as a response to all of the hate side, she wrote this article on internet hatred.

And all I have to say is – if mean spirited comments and articles can makes this woman – a punk musician with raging success and an army of fans – if it can make HER sad, what defense do the rest of us have? I mean that’s kind of the point of her post, but it was pretty shocking to me. I kind of always figured that if you get to a certain point and enough people love you (and shout from the rooftops how much they love you, and give you their hard earned money for the product you’re selling) that you must eventually become immune to negativity. I guess what reading her post has shown me is that there is no such thing as immunity to hate. Hate hurts, no matter who it’s directed at and who it’s coming from. No matter if it’s in your face or on the internet. There’s just no reason for it. It makes people sad, end of story. And it’s a really hard thing for me to wrap my head around that people might WANT to make someone else sad.

Last week I had a post featured on another blog and that post got some negative comments from one particular reader. Not a polite criticism of my work, but an attack on myself as a person as well. It was just one silly comment out of dozens, and it wasn’t even someone that I knew, but it was enough to put me into a serious funk and start to really doubt my self worth. So how can one single comment have so much power? Especially when given a bit of distance and time to reflect, it was clearly not worth shedding tears over. In thinking it over I keep coming back to the same word – vulnerability. When we share anything of ourselves online, we are inherently making ourselves vulnerable. Which brings me to another of the TED talks. This one is (after so many viewings and re-viewings) still one of my all-time favorites. It’s by Brené Brown and it’s on exactly that word – vulnerability. It’s amazing – seriously, go watch it. She writes and talks so much about opening ourselves up to experiences and living wholeheartedly. The part that always sticks with me when I read her work is the idea that you can’t just numb the hard feelings – in order to really live, we need to experience both the highs AND the lows. Her newest book is called Daring Greatly – she talks in it about not being afraid to fail. Don’t be afraid that your ideas might flop, some of them will – but that doesn’t mean you should be afraid to try. And I’ve been all on board with that, but I wasn’t ready for hate.

In trying to make sense of the whole experience I’ve been finding a lot of common threads in uncommon places. Brené Brown and Amanda Palmer don’t have a whole lot in common, other than both having delivered popular TED talks at one point in their careers, but I think that we can learn something from both of them. The best lesson I’ve learned so far is that not only do I need to be ready to fail in the sense that I might not be successful, I need to be prepared for the fact that my failures might become personal. It makes sense that in a world so diverse, nothing is universally loved. The world would be a pretty boring place if we all had the exact same taste, so I wouldn’t expect that everyone would love what I write or do or make. But I am only now realizing that even beyond not liking what I do – some people might actually hate what I do. And that even if (when) that happens I can’t let it define me or my work any more than I should let failure of any other kind define me. It’s so hard to let hurtful words just go without dwelling on them, but I know that moving on is my only option. Creating beautiful things and trying to fill the world with goodness and love is the only way for me to be. Sorry haters, this girl only has love.

On love, hate and TED talks - Permanent Riot

On love, hate and TED talks.

day 63 {she sleeps}

Project 365 on Permanent Riot by Katy Regnier photography

There are some parts of parenting that are tiresome from the very first time they happen (making school lunches!) – and then there are others that no matter how many times you are witness to them, they just simply cannot get old. I could watch my sleeping babies for the rest of my life and die a happy woman. There is something so awe-inspiring in a sleeping child – a little bit of heaven on earth.

day 63 {she sleeps}

day 62 {insta-sky}

Project 365 on Permanent Riot by Katy Regnier photography

I remember when I was in high school, the teacher who taught my photography class gave us a long lecture about what digital cameras were, and why they would never become a tool of professional photographers. These days I carry a camera with me in my pocket everywhere I go, and I instantly share my images with hundreds of people at once. It’s a crazy world we’re living in, isn’t it? This image is straight from my iphone, cropped and watermarked only – no editing or sharpening. Amazing what a few years and a little bit of technological advancement will do.

day 62 {insta-sky}

February Skies – an instagram project 365

March already! I can’t believe how fast this year is already flying by. Maybe it’s the fact that it was in the 80s today or maybe it’s all of the blossoms on our fruit trees in the backyard, but I feel like we have fast-forwarded squarely into the middle of spring (maybe even summer?)

I was a little bit worried when I started my #365daysofsky project on instagram that I’d have trouble taking a photo every single day without repeating myself, but it seems as thought I needn’t have worried. Even on bright blue days there’s always a sunset, and it’s fun to find new ways to frame the sky. It’s such an amazing thing, isn’t it? It’s always in motion and the clouds on one day are never the same as the next. I’ve found that with the exception of extremely rainy days (where it’s hard to get outside without getting my iphone all wet) there really hasn’t been a single day that I wasn’t excited to go out and see what the sky had in store for me.

So without further ado, here is the collection of all of my February sky shots – I don’t put them together until the very end of the month so seeing them all in one spot is a fun surprise. I don’t think I’ll ever get tired of our beautiful California skies.

#365daysofsky - an instagram project 365 by Katy Regnier photography

This post is the second in a set of monthly recaps of my instagram daily sky series. If you missed the first month, check out January skies right here.

February Skies – an instagram project 365

day 61 {March of Dimes}

Project 365 on Permanent Riot by Katy Regnier photography

Today I went to help my sister with some of the work she’s doing for the March of Dimes’ march for babies in San Diego – she’s volunteered to hold informational meetings for people who are starting walking teams for this year’s event. Allison is an amazing walking team captain and I am so proud of the work that she’s done raising money for the March of Dimes over the last few years. She’s set up a facebook page for this year’s walk and also an online auction where you can bid on some wonderful items – including a portrait session by yours truly.

day 61 {March of Dimes}